My husband, had started talking about going into law enforcement when he was in high school. Then shortly out of high school he started working for a local check printing company. We got married and started having kids as he continued to move up in his company. He had supported me when I left a job of over 8 years to go full time into real estate. After 11 years with his company my husband had someone start working for him that was a reserve officer. It renewed his desire to look into law enforcement. He ended up going through a part time academy to become a reserve officer (volunteer). Working weekends and some holidays with a local police department. After 3 years of that he was offered an opportunity to get on full time with that police department. He would need to quit his current job of 14 years, take a cut in pay and attend a 6 month intense police academy program. It took a lot of prayer for me to completely support him in this “opportunity”.
We made a pack while he was in the academy that he would take care of everything for him and I would take care of our 3 kids and ALL the household stuff. Our kids were 3, 7 & 9 at the time. I was working full time in real estate, my income was 100% commission. The academy started in July and would go until mid-December. During October & November it felt like our family was becoming completely unglued. During this time Sean would have days where he would be sick all day, couldn’t keep anything down. Then by that evening he would be totally fine. It was happening every 2 to 3 weeks. After the third time I took him to the pediatrician and by process of elimination they decided he was having migraines. We didn’t know what was causing them and because of his age they didn’t want to give him any strong medicine. Then around this same time, Steve our oldest son that had been born blind, developed breathing problems. At the point he was struggling talking and having to sit up to breathe at night, I took him to the pediatrician. He had developed asthma and needed to start using an inhaler. Then during this same time frame, there was concern that Seth may have a hearing loss. He was already struggling with sensory issues, a lot of behavior issues and then with just turning 3, he still wasn’t really talking. They determined his ear drums weren’t moving so we went to an ears, nose and throat doctor. Then they sent us downtown for a hearing test. We sat in this small sound proof booth, with Seth on my lap and the person conducting the test across from us. It was hard to sit there calmly holding him realizing he was clearly failing the test. Once again they didn’t know what was causing it so they didn’t know for sure if it could be corrected. Do you ever feel like, that’s it! That was the final straw!
I know we are told that God won’t put more on us than we can handle but we sometimes feel like we are being taken right to the edge! 1 Corinthians 10:13 in the message bible says: No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.
Rick had taken a pay cut, which we had somewhat prepared for. We obviously weren’t expecting all the extra doctor bills. Then during this same time frame, 6 deals I had been working on, some of them for several months. Slowly each one of them fell apart for one reason or another. Did I mention I was 100% commission?
We felt like we were being attacked, mentally, physically, spiritually and financially! In Matthew 11:28 it says: Come to me those who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest! Then I love Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still… in the NLT it says: Just stay calm! We are told over and over in the Word, that the battle isn’t ours it belongs to the Lord. I can tell you we certainly felt like we were in the middle of a battle and that I had no control of ANYTHING!
What I have got the opportunity to learn over and over throughout my life is that sometimes God calms the storms and sometimes He just calms us (gives us peace) during the storm! It’s not that we do not have a part. I believe what God is asking of us… We do are best and Trust God to the rest!